But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Have you ever really been attracted to someone intellectually? This is a conversation that I have had with myself many a time. The last time that I had this 2-sided debate with myself was in my senior year of college about this guy named Adam. He was older and totally not attractive. At all. La da da. But as we sat there debating the greater potential that marketing academia can have on society as a whole, I wondered if there was a way to fall in love with someone's mind. I'm sure that there have been many a cases in history where intellect has truly lead the potential of the relationship or kindled the flame, but I'm unsure if the type of connection that I'm talking about is really enough to create a level of attraction or not...or is it too much?

But that leads me to my current day problem: I have a huge crush. Which kinda sucks. It's not a real crush (I don't think) because one of those definitely has lustful intentions. This is not one of those things. This is more of an intellectual crush. Which I feel weird about. I want so much to be his friend – which, again, is weird. But he's an interesting person. At least I think he is, but I can't be 100% convinced of that. At least not right now. I want to know all about him - how did he get to where he is now, does he do anything during the day, does he have huge ambitions, what's his favorite foreign country, does he own 7 pairs of the same shirt, what does he find funny, does he like shows like arrested development or family guy or conan or dexter or flight of the conchords, what comedians inspire him, would he say that stand-up has made as much of an impact on society as improv or vice versa, would he be content to be where he is for the rest of his life, what was it like working with D, why is he so quiet, what secret about the universe does he know that I do not (of which I am sure there are many), or when is he the most happiest (ed. note, I know that this is not correct grammar, please don't correct it). I want to desperately know what he thinks of me and I'm so confused as to why I want to know this or why I seek his approval so much. Why is this so hard for me? Why can't he make eye contact with me for extended periods of time - and does this mean that I'm just creepy? And why every time I see him do I feel like it's the first time he has ever seen me and not necessarily in a good way? Does he ever do karaoke and if so what's his go-to song? Or does he just laugh at people who do karaoke because they will never have the real talent that he does? Or is he really not that arrogant? Does he even like girls? Honestly, he could be married; I know nothing. A quick search of google returns little. I'm wondering how much connection with him is ok. Stalking? Befriending? Facebook? MySpace? Band's profile page?

Ok, well, I did learn he's straight.